Daily Archive for December 2nd, 2006

Hebrews 4

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v 15, 16 “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are - yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.”

When I think of Jesus, I still cannot see Him being temped with the same things I’m tempted with. For some reason, the specifics of my sin just doesn’t match up… I know he was tempted, just like any human being, but he wasn’t able to sin…

I just can’t see Jesus being lazy. I can’t even see Jesus being hungry… even know I know he fasted for 40 days. For some reason, it has never hit me so hard until now… Jesus, did you really get tempted in the ways I get tempted now? I find it almost impossible… but he endured it, and was a stunning example of how we should all be… not just bottling it in, but truly understanding the temptation, and even, using it to help others that are tempted in that same way.

Every day is my time of need. Every day I must seek his grace and mercy… EVERY DAY.

Application: I don’t know why, but I’ve been trying to go through a page out of my Hanja workbook every day. It seems that that has become more important than opening up the Word. I’m going to not touch that Hanja book until I finish one of these posts, and pray through it. Hopefully, I can do so in the mornings… morning QTs seem like more effective, since the lesson is more fresh in your head.

I guess I should try to get up even earlier than 9. If I could force myself to leave the library at 12, and go to bed at 1… and get 6 to 7 hours of sleep, and wake up at around 7…

Prayer Request: I still have NO clue as to if I should stay on campus. As money problems become more and more apparent, it would be best to reduce the cost of living by moving back… but really, I would love to continue to interface with the people here in IL and return to playing a larger role with the church. I need to look to the core of the matter, rather than just being back and forth listing out pros and cons. Please pray that I’ll be able to hear God’s wisdom through it all…

Also, next client. I was able to secure my first client, thank God. But now, after that’s done, where to go? The life of a freelancer is tough, what can I say…

The Next Step

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Congrats to me… I’ve got my first client (whoa, sound so… professional) yesterday. I would have wrote this entry yesterday, but man, was I tired.

After finalizing what I had to do until the next deadline, I ended the phone conversation. I will be working to redesign and implement D & E Technical, Inc.’s website. I forsee this project not going longer than a month, but really, I need to start looking for a second client as I go about this job.

This is where it gets exciting… and also worrisome… because I don’t really have to be here in Champaign for this job. It can purely be a telecommuting job, and so I could cut costs by going home and living there.

Food and rent would be effectively ZERO if I went back home. However, if I’m on campus, I will be most likely spending money on things like… eating out, coffee, gas, rent… oh man.

Let’s do a little cost analysis:

  • $300 - Rent per month (Most likely)
  • $50 - Gas per month (Estimated, Very likely)
  • $300 - Food per month (Estimated)
  • $50 - For phun?

Which means… I’m leaking $700 (minimum…) in being here. That’s how much I should pay for loans… which means I need to make 2x that as I’m here. So the real question is: where am I going to be next year? Where the freak do I need to be? Apple seems like they’re still having a hard time getting back to me… and even if they did give me a job, I won’t be as quick to accept it (seeing how it took them a month and a half to get back to me…).

I want to rejoin WIMPE, the gym on campus. I need to relieve some stress in a positive manner, and not by just sitting around and reading. It’ll be a nice $219… as long as I make it there 30 times, I’ll be fine. But if I’m not here on campus for next year… what was the reason for that? Hmm… decisions, decisions… [strokes imaginary beard]