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Strength in weakness.

I’m learning this… in the most roundabout way possible.

I’m sure some of you have insecurities or weaknesses. I’m also sure that there are some that you don’t want others to know about.

The funny thing is… as much as we hold onto them, if they are found out by the right people, it can be tremendous strengths.

To find those right people… that’s the trick. They can peer into your soul so well, able to detect that tumor that, if not discovered early on, will cause massive cancer and painful chemotherapy to remove. It might just result in outright death. On the other hand… if someone helped me find that tumor, I’ll be alive. With a scar, but in the end, alive. Better for my eye or my hand to perish than for my entire body to perish. (Matthew 5:28-30)

For those that have actually sat down with me… and directly pointed out those flaws… I am ever so thankful. Moreover, for those that might have inadvertently shown me these issues… I am even more so thankful.

The point to this is that… I’m having to multitask on my issues in ways I’ve never imagined before. Three. Three is the number. Three people.

I cannot spend enough time on one relationship because the other two seem more pressing while I think about the one. While, yes, in my awesome skill to efficiently achieve some sort of order, there is a way to put them to an ordinal list… but that ranking is completely ineffective when emotions are thrown into the equation. And yes, relationships are kinda built on that… Nothing is static, it seems… and nothing is currently getting resolved.

However! However, while these issues might not be getting resolved, I’m learning through the process. I remember… it isn’t the goal… the means are amazingly important.

So now… I hold on to the things that matter most, and pray for dear life that all will come to pass.

While the storm may seem like the worst one yet… there is most likely yet another… even far worse… But looking to the cross has never been so easy.

Please pray… not only for a quick resolution (because I think these relationships might take a LONG while) but for immense growth and understanding on my part and also on the three.