Monthly Archive for January, 2007Page 3 of 9

YES! Site Niche Found!

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Josh Kim
on January 22, 2007
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I’ve been talking to people about how there needs to be more nerdy Christians.

I’m now proud to say I’ve made up my mind about JoshKim.org and the direction I want to take with it.

It will now be a blog focused on the life of a Christan computer nerd, with interests ranging from technological issues to personal finance to business concepts to user interface design to Asian cultures, with a sprinkling of really bad humor and horrible sarcasm from time to time.

That’s it! That should be plastered on the index.php of this site.

See… this is why it was so hard to redesign this site… If you don’t know what the book is actually going to be about, how in the world do you design the cover? What the freak can you do with shapes, colors, and lines?

Slowly, I’ve been making changes to the site. I’ve made RSS feeds available through feedburner, I’ve made sure that technorati tags are working… I might start integrating some other Web 2.0 services (meebo me? mybloglog? what what what?)…

Also… what good is a blog without content. I’ve been trying to change my writing style into a more “you”-oriented style. I think, during the days of JKmain.com, I thought I was “selling out” if I wasn’t writing purely for myself, and just letting the readers in on the fun. Silly JK… it’s been years since that happened…

I’ve realized that I want… no… need to make my mark in the community. What community, you ask? Well… the blogosphere is quite large. Not only is there are large number of different groups of people, there are quite the overlap in these groups. It’s amazing to even think about it.

I’m not going to just go ahead and throw away my personal entries all together… I’m just going to start structuring them a little bit more into ways that people can… I don’t know, read and find out things about me.

So that’s my conviction. Now… to find the time to make the cosmetic changes…

Current Status

Published
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Josh Kim
on January 22, 2007
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I prayed for growth. I did. In all areas… I prayed for growth.

But I forgot again how painful and extremely difficult growth can be.

I had a very nice talk with an older brother in Christ, Danny Kim, yesterday night. He listened and helped me recognize many deep-rooted problems I have. I’ll share the most important.

Control. You see… even through hard work, even through time, even through emotional investments… sometimes things just don’t work out. Relationships don’t. No matter how careful I was… the relationships just didn’t.

I wasn’t happy with the outcome, so I kept trying… refusing to give up on myself. Wow, look at that selfishness.

But who am I to do that? No matter how noble the cause might have been, this is that Perfectionistic Josh Kim returning to bat.

2 Peter 1:5-11 For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But if anyone does not have them, he is near-sighted and blind, and has forgotten that he has been cleansed from his past sins.

Therefore my brothers, be all the more eager to make your calling and election sure. For if you do these things, you will never fall, and you will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

This verse could not have come at a better time. I have a somewhat strong faith, I have some goodness (or good intentions… maybe kinda… sorta…), I have just a tiny bit of knowledge… but this is where the conditional statements stop applying to me. It’s seems like it’s one costly battle after another… and all the way at top of the mountain is love. Oh, how unproductive I’ve become because these relationships have hit me so hard.

Today’s a little different though. I’ve begun to keep crawling. I know for a fact… through faith… that this will all come to pass. These feelings of anxiety, depression… slight anger and frustration… all will come to pass.

Faith. Goodness. Knowledge. Self-control. Perseverance. Godliness. Brotherly kindness. Love

All I can do now is pray about them.

God… if this were to have happened last year… oh man, that would have been an interesting hole.

CrossOver for Mac… or is it UIUC’s CITES Network?

Published
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Josh Kim
on January 22, 2007
in Web Applications
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You’ve got to be kidding me. I spent hours (!) on fixing a freaking IE bug, which actually seems like it might have been one of those magical bugs that I CAN’T reproduce.

I’ve had problems like this before… but I put the blame on CITES. It seems like they cache frequently accessed pages so that the network would be happy… but freaking drives people like me and the rest of the CS department doing web interface design INSANE. Or not…

So this time… I’ve been using CrossOver to load up Internet Explorer 6. Thanks to Amir (where’s your website, manji? I’d link you in a heartbeat…), I found out that there is an issue with CrossOver.

So now… I’m going to have to ask for a computer with IE 6 to my client to finish this up. Ugh… what a waste of a day…

weakstrengthness

Published
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Josh Kim
on January 21, 2007
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Strength in weakness.

I’m learning this… in the most roundabout way possible.

I’m sure some of you have insecurities or weaknesses. I’m also sure that there are some that you don’t want others to know about.

The funny thing is… as much as we hold onto them, if they are found out by the right people, it can be tremendous strengths.

To find those right people… that’s the trick. They can peer into your soul so well, able to detect that tumor that, if not discovered early on, will cause massive cancer and painful chemotherapy to remove. It might just result in outright death. On the other hand… if someone helped me find that tumor, I’ll be alive. With a scar, but in the end, alive. Better for my eye or my hand to perish than for my entire body to perish. (Matthew 5:28-30)

For those that have actually sat down with me… and directly pointed out those flaws… I am ever so thankful. Moreover, for those that might have inadvertently shown me these issues… I am even more so thankful.

The point to this is that… I’m having to multitask on my issues in ways I’ve never imagined before. Three. Three is the number. Three people.

I cannot spend enough time on one relationship because the other two seem more pressing while I think about the one. While, yes, in my awesome skill to efficiently achieve some sort of order, there is a way to put them to an ordinal list… but that ranking is completely ineffective when emotions are thrown into the equation. And yes, relationships are kinda built on that… Nothing is static, it seems… and nothing is currently getting resolved.

However! However, while these issues might not be getting resolved, I’m learning through the process. I remember… it isn’t the goal… the means are amazingly important.

So now… I hold on to the things that matter most, and pray for dear life that all will come to pass.

While the storm may seem like the worst one yet… there is most likely yet another… even far worse… But looking to the cross has never been so easy.

Please pray… not only for a quick resolution (because I think these relationships might take a LONG while) but for immense growth and understanding on my part and also on the three.

Deep in the Night…

Published
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Josh Kim
on January 21, 2007
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I can’t think too much right now. I’m going to bed. Good night!