Monthly Archive for January, 2007

What a Week!

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I am now a proud member of ISR 9, lead by Karlo and Jonie. From the looks of it, this is going to be one seriously interesting small group. Now, I don’t know if this is where God is leading… Ken stopped me and asked if I would like to join his, since his small group has 7 freshmen and they’re in dire need of a car… but I don’t know. Maybe if I knew how the small group selection process worked. I only asked to be placed into a Wednesday night small group because of my love of symmetry (Sunday Service, Wednesday Small Group, Friday Large Group). We’ll see how this turns out.

Large Group. “The Office” spoof was almost dead on, with the unsteady camera shots and each of the guys being someone from the actual show. Oh, how I miss running through all those episodes with Derek… which reminds me, I think I’m going to hang out with him some more tomorrow… I hope I get all my work done.

Dodgeball at Canaan. That was some good times. I think I threw out my arms in the process (definitely should NOT have done biceps and forearms). I also screwed up my knee. I like sliding on the floor with them.

Tired. I don’t know what led me to wake up so early and go to morning prayer. I just want to make sure that I’m not doing this for anyone but God. But of course, motives can’t be 100% pure… I just need to make sure I get my butt up and spend an hour with God.

Which brings me to my last point: I wonder where my day goes. Here’s a snapshot of a 24 hour period.

1 hour: Bible/Prayer. Yeap… at LEAST… 1 hour: Something else… like foreign language, or musical interests… or drawing… or something 1 hour: Cooking. I cook. I aim for an hour per meal, from prep work to cleanup. However, all this week, I don’t think I had a proper dinner. One night, I had this ghetto rice with eggs and albacore tuna. Protein galore, but not very… yeah, you know what I mean. 2 hours: WIMPE. Lift for 1 hour, run for 30 minutes. Actually, this turns out to be longer than 2 sometimes, or shorter. It evens out to 2 in the long run, I think.

1 hour: Travel. If I need to go on campus, or go to work, this is how long it takes, on average, to walk out to the bus stop and take the bus OR drive and find a parking spot. This also counts for the times I go to ISR now and then. 1 hour: Bathroom/Shower. I think this is pretty good. No more questions. 7 hours: Sleep. I have to get a nap in from time to time… but this has to get shortened. This is too long.

This leaves 10 hours for work. I can’t believe it. Where does the time go? Of course, I can take half an hour here and there and make it a longer work day, but dizang, where does the time go?

Tomorrow is nothing different. Gotta get to shopping, and get to WIMPE, and get to ISR to work and meet people.

This is indeed… the start of something new.

Thank you, GOD, for the sermon tonight… I will apply it directly to forehead, head-… um, yeah. I will apply it daily… directly to… stop.

Whoo hoo! I’m insane! It’s 4 AM! I woke up this time yesterday!

Goooooood Morning?

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on January 19, 2007
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Now wasn’t that fun?

I think I slept 4 hours or so. It was quite a blur. So technically… this still counts as a post from yesterday… but moving on.

I’m currently trying to master CSS again. I thought I did, but CSS seems to be one trixy language… there needs to be a standard for working with this standard, it seems. I guess it’s so new, that people haven’t even agreed on what the general consensus for the syntax, even. I mean, look at C++. Sure, there are requirements that the compiler wants (in CSS, the W3C CSS validator), but I mean… I’m just so used to spacing things one way, or blocking code in another. With CSS… it seems like I come up with a standard every freaking single time I start up a site.

Not only is there a lack of a consistent standard for a standard, it seems like there are new ways of doing it every month. Just today, I ran across a digg article pertaining to css… and I was opened up to yet another method of tabbing, commenting, spacing…

I guess what I’m trying to say is… I hate CSS, but I love it more.

I think also the lack of sleep is getting to my head.

On the Wii

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on January 18, 2007
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11:20:14 PM Amir: it’s the cheapest next-gen console11:20:22 PM Josh: you took the words right out of my mouth 11:20:23 PM Josh: indeed it is 11:22:40 PM Amir: needs more games though 11:22:49 PM Josh: did you run through them already? 11:22:54 PM Josh: do you just have zelda? 11:22:59 PM Amir: zelda and madden 11:23:04 PM Josh: madden? 11:23:05 PM Josh: is it good? 11:23:25 PM Amir: yeah 11:23:44 PM Amir: the wii controls are pretty good 11:23:49 PM Amir: except kicking feels a bit weird 11:23:59 PM Amir: you kind of kick how you bowl 11:24:05 PM Josh: haha 11:24:14 PM Josh: duct tape the wiimote to your legs 11:24:17 PM Josh: that’s how it’s done 11:24:23 PM Josh: everything should come with duct tape 11:24:24 PM Amir: haha 11:24:36 PM Amir: they need a shoe addon 11:24:46 PM Amir: like the powerglove 11:24:50 PM Josh: yesss 11:24:57 PM Josh: the powershoe 11:25:04 PM Josh: this is going on the blog

How’s Your Day Going Today?

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I was talking to a Cingular rep, trying to increase my minutes on my Family Plan. I was asked:

“How’s your day going today?”

I flatly lied: “It’s going well.”

I guess it was kinda going well. I had ran across town, finishing up errands (starting a new bank account, figuring out why my gate key wasn’t working, picking up Paul, Charlie, and John).

But no matter how many things I cross off my list (and by the way, it’s actually good motivator in the mornings… leave something really trivial to finish for the next morning when you wake up… and man, it’ll help you start your day!), I couldn’t shake the fact that I am, still indeed, proud.

I’m so proud, in fact, that I’m proud of my pride. See what I just did in the last paragraph? I just indirectly told you how much I am the humblest man in the world.

Patronizing words come from this mindset. I cannot shake it. I can’t just cross this weakness off my list.

But daily faithfulness… daily prayer… as iron sharpen iron… I kinda had to jump around Proverbs for this verse, but still, it’s quality. This leads me to how I need to keep seeking out those brothers and sisters more mature in the faith. It’s not that they have the answers to all my questions, but that they can show me the road to God…

Aw, snap. It’s time to work some more. Only a few hours left before I sleep…

A New Start… For the Students…?

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on January 17, 2007
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Yesterday, it felt weird going to sleep because I had posted my daily entries early. I think I’m going to go back to my normal posting due time of midnight, and try to stick to that as best as possible.

It turns out, after I made my post yesterday, I went to Wal-Mart with Dean. I needed a trash can for the apartment, and what better place to get it than at Dean’s parent’s store. I really like this trash can for some strange reason… it was cheap and it was in this really nice shape. I would post a picture, but I’m still working on trying to get pictures working on the blog. After that, I met up with Brian Liu and Dan Sun at the lounge, playing some Mahjong with some ISR peoples. I was also invited to go bowling with some ISR guys, but I decided against it… instead I stuck around to play some rounds of fun fun Mahjong.

It brought back many memories of my Junior year… that’s when I learned how to play this thing. I still remember “bi pi”, our way of calling the white slate (”bi pi” translates to white skin… “Hey! It’s the Dean Knox tile!”). Playing this made me want to learn Mandarin again… but finding out yet again that I cannot, for the life of me, get the intonations. I got to meet Sean (I think that’s how you spell his name), Richard, and Kevin. Oh right, and Austin dropped by to see and play a round of this game he’s never played before. All in all, a great way to end Martin Luther King, Jr. Day… by celebrating a different culture than mine… by… playing Mahjong. Um, yeah, moving on.

This afternoon, I met up with John Kim, a friend I made last semester. Panera is a great place to go to chat. I need to visit more often. We talked briefly, but I was happy we still had our talk.

When I think back to the last 24 hours, I cannot help but to realize the people I’ve come in contact with. (Oh, and I almost forgot, my new roommate, Dave Shim.) I feel so convicted to pray for every single on of them… to talk to them, to keep up with them…

However, my daily routine is still… very routine. Let’s see… I wake up. Pray. Do a bunch of stuff. Eat. Do some more stuff. Then go to WIMPE to work out. Then come home, eat some more stuff. Do some more stuff. Sleep.

Now, it could be boiled down to that… I mean, I could boil it down to: I exist. Period. But I can’t just exist. That’d be silly. There’s clear cut evidence, for me, that there is something much greater for all of us…

For the students, today was their first day. For me, every day continues to be my first day.

Wow, this entry was quite scatterbrained. I hope you didn’t read it, because it looks like one of those posts that are purely for me, when I go into retirement. I might have to make a new category for these kinds of posts.

Really, there are no lessons here.

Oh wait, here comes one.

It was my dad’s birthday today. 49th. He’s going to be 50 next year. It’s my sister’s birthday on the 24th. Her 18th.

I’m getting older. So is everyone I know. I have a feeling that I’m holding on to things because I fear change. The next steps coming, Josh Kim, whether you like it or not.

And so… I pray. I pray for the things that have come. I pray for the things that are now. I pray for the things that will… inevitably… come.

Oh man, it’s gotta be this sappy piano music that’s making me type things like this. I’ve recently come across the entire Yiruma collection, as well as the Spring Waltz OST (yes… a Korean drama…).

Oyez. I thin I’m wasting people’s time. I gotta stop writing garbage like this…

Oh, and I’m #2 on Google for “Josh Kim”. Only the dot com to get rid of. See, this would be easier if I actually got done the main page for joshkim.org…

I’ve gone to WIMPE daily for about two weeks, minus the 12th. I feel like my left arm is going to fall off.

“Pain is estrogen leaving the body.” - Dean Knox

One of these days, I need to write a post about this kid…

Here comes another lesson.

Relationships. Change. I can’t really put it to words right now the lesson I learned about these two words that seemed so hard to understand all those years ago… but I know it’s there. Let me try now. Let’s use me for an example.

The four years of college. I’ve met quite a lot of people. I think I’ve met more people then than all the years of my life before college. But… while I remember the people… I see the change also. I see how they’ve grown, I see how they’ve faltered… but I see change. That change is very evident… and I’m sure those that have seen me have seen me change.

Relationships are based on who you are. What music you like… what clothes you wear… what you like to eat… what you believe in… all these things play a role. It could also be under what circumstances you met… and how geographically close you were. It could be based on weaknesses and strengths in character…

Regardless of whatever the relationship might be based on… change occurs. Situations change. Viewpoints change. People change.

Okay, words are not coming to me today. Maybe that is why I’ve written such a horrible entry. I can’t even finish well. Frick.

Come back tomorrow. Maybe I’ll have sorted all these things out by then.

Oh man, this is bad entry. But it’s so long, it’s gotta go somewhere.

I’m really tired. I’m just going to go read the Bible and sleep.

[THUD]

Fin.

I think after this post, I’m going to seriously start rethinking about how I go about making posts. While “stream of consciousness” writing is good sometimes… I don’t know if for daily posts… dang it. Why do I even feel like I have to make daily posts in the first place?