It’s quickly becoming the norm that I don’t sleep before 3 AM. I was looking forward to changing that tonight, but now I have this weird urge to type something out. Here’s to hoping I just rock this post, and go to bed.

This week’s been very very busy. Finding a paid gig through a friend via Twitter was quite an interesting turn of events. I guess I’ll now be flipping back and forth between this new project and my own things.

In an effort to become more efficient with my time on the computer, I’ve got into vim and its lovely library of plugins. Memorizing what seemed at first to be complete nonsensical keystrokes that now seem completely logical proved to be quite an experience. Of course, this is slowing down a lot of the simpler things, but I feel like this period of learning is going to pay off big as time goes on.

I feel extremely tired and weary, but I feel like this state of insanity is where I need to be: A balance between the ideal and practical, optimistic and realistic. And there have been times I asked myself if this is what I actually want. Am I just chasing dreams because of thrill of the chase itself? Do I truly believe in my ideas and am I truly passionate? And is this enough?

Hello, race condition.

Again, realizing: Take it one step at a time. No one becomes awesome instead in one fell swoop. It’ll take a lot of tinkering to even figure out what “awesome” is. And then to achieve it? Good luck. Or something like that, for those of us that don’t believe in that jazz.

Continuing: Why haven’t you taken that first step? What’s stopping you? If it’s anything but you, are you off the hook?

I guess it’s been laziness, thinking that there’s going to be this innate ability that I can always fall back onto for sustenance. Talent. But letting this talent rot… such a shameful waste. Honing the talent… takes effort.

I sure hope I have the talent to get more talents.

Life.hack

Fueled by: The Submarines – Honeysuckle Weeks. Yeah, it took the entire album to write this post.

Also brought to you by: Isolator. Especially for these braindump posts that don’t require any fact checking, other than in my head, it works great.