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Posts that Didn't Quite Make It

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Here’s a quick list of posts that just didn’t make the cut in the past couple of days. It’ll be quick and painless. Skim, please.

Zooom: Increase Window Functionality in Mac OS X

Zooom: Window Stuff, “Done Right” Try it out. I think I might be purchasing this soon.

CommunityNext: Threadless.com Presentation

Yet another video I won’t be able to watch until after lent… this list is getting longer really fast.

Sitting Apparatus: Ergonomic?

In the Year 2000...

I purchased this ball in hopes to alleviate some of the back issues I’ve been having. (On second thought… it might be because of the messed up way I lift, but I’m still trying to figure this out…) That, and the table (pictured) was designed for tall(er) people: That keyboard drawer was most likely designed for a footrest, or something like that. Even with this 65 cm ball, my arms are not resting at my side as they should be.

And if all fails, I could just use it as an exercise tool at home. Hooray!

(Yeah, I know… exercise balls are kinda feminine, no?)

Future of MP3?

Seriously… patent law reform, anybody?

Apple, Samsung, Sandisk sued by Texas MP3 Technologies

Microsoft sued by Alcatel-Lucent for $1.5 billion

Current Status: Awake

It’s late. Like… freshman-year-coding-insanity late… I just ended up cleaning my bathroom for the strangest reason (at least I’ll wake up to a beautiful bathroom tomorrow morning).

Not sure why, but my schedule is off. It’s like… there is no consistency at all. While there is a consistency to what I have to get DONE in a day, the order is just all out of whack. Not sure if this is a bad thing, but it’s not making ultra-planned Josh Kim not a happy man. Maybe super-chill Josh Kim will take over, instead.

I haven’t had one of those long-drawn out personal posts in a while… and while I feel like I have one in me, I’m going to keep avoiding it like the plague. One of these days, though… it’ll just leak out, and I won’t have any control of it.

Oh, right. A new goal: For every personal post, I MUST post a web/technology related post before it. It’s not like I’m running out of web/tech posts, so I won’t be having a problem posting personal stuff.

Okay, here it comes… the brain dump.

Today was insane. I got up, only to realize I didn’t leave my dryer on as I should have. Got into work a little bit later. Skipped lunch. Went to ISR to finish up work. Met up with Mike Cho for the studying/working. Met up with small group for Bible reading. Went to WIMPE until close.

I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be just as insane. Hopefully, this time, I’ll pack a lunch.

State of my heart? HAHA. You’ll be needing to pay for a meal for that one… and a coffee afterwards… to just START talking about this one. Hopefully, I’ll be getting around to the continuation of those entries…

A VERY long day

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After going to sleep at around 3 AM (not sure… I just kept reading the Bible), I woke up again before the alarm at 7:30, only to be so tired that I decided to cut down on RSS time and get like 15 minutes more sleep.

Missed the bus that would have taken me to work by 9, but instead took the next one to make it by 9:30. Worked like a crazy person until 2 PM, with no discernible break in between… and I’m still not done. Lots to do tomorrow… but I wonder if I can get out of going in. Trackball’s supposed to come by mail, and I wonder if someone’s going to be here to accept the package.

I decided to stick around campus and finish up what little lunch I packed. Read through the Bible… I feel more and more confident and able to point out where things are in the Old Testament each day… I feel like it’s fast becoming my textbook on life.

Took the bus back, then without warning, I fell into a deep sleep. Then woke up and started going through my feeds, yet again… to find out that a friend needed a ride to a meeting, and she was already late. Taking this as a sign, I packed myself a very VERY light dinner (comprising of grapes and yogurt… wow, I’m such a girl…) and got ready to head for WIMPE.

But you see, my day should have ended with me, coming back home, making dinner, and going to bed. NOPE. I went to ISR, to meet the likes of Colin, Christine, Andrew, Ken, Jon Chu; and the list goes on and on…

And I feel like this all-nighter was only possible because of those people. Well, yeah, they did take up my time and forced me into this position… but what I’m saying is that the energy that these guys spewed forth into me… something about being near students again makes me feel alive.

Oh, a sidepoint: For the first time since… that one really messed up night during college… I had a nosebleed. This happened while I was helping Christine with her ECE 205. I have a theory: My brain freaked out when it started getting bombarded with resistors and diodes. I can’t believe I still remember some of this stuff.

Just goes to show you: God’ll redeem everything. Even elementary circuit analysis.

Now, to the code and to the writing of worthwhile posts.

The Bible as a Gateway… Book?

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Just wanted to comment on one thing very shortly:

Reading the Bible more and more… has been helping me to read other books. While I probably read pages and pages worth of information through my feeds (and hit the delete key on about 99% digg posts… that’s another entry waiting to happen), I still have many books just waiting to be read.

I’ve been meaning to read History of Western Philosophy by Bertrand Russell for some YEARS. I think I bought this book sometime in high school, and never got past page 10. I guess it’s just my unending quest to… better myself? Eh… just to be better read, I guess.

I still want to definitely focus on getting my Daily Bread in… daily, but it seems like being able to flip through physical pages of an actual book is still fun. I read SO much when I was little. From what I remember, my love of reading American literature started in 5th grade. Literature… Ha!

Choose Your Own Adventure

I think at one point, I read as many of these books I could find at the public library in Charlotte, North Carolina and La Crescenta, California. I’m pretty sure I got past #100.

There was a method I developed in reading these books. I don’t know how familiar you are with these books, but sometimes, if you took the wrong path, you’d find yourself dead or lost somewhere or eaten. To avoid this, I used every single finger I had available to mark wherever the story would fork.

I hated those ones where the story would fork into three different paths… which would create that many more finger slash bookmark objects to keep up with the book.

Goosebumps

I remember I was in the 40s when I stopped reading. R.L Stine is a machine for making so many of these books. If I went back to read them, I’d be laughing my butt off for wondering why I found these books to be so captivating.

I can’t believe I remember some of these titles.

Encyclopedia Brown

Suspense. Mystery. I always wanted my life to be filled with mystery and suspense… and have the answer available near the end of the story for easy consumption.

Anything by Beverly Cleary

I’m not sure why I was into these books. It’s so very out of character for me to enjoy such down to earth, American life books (remember, in my elementary school days, I was still very much lacking in the area of English… okay, who am I kidding, I still do…). That middle class lifestyle must have appealed to me, somewhat, amidst all these changes in the state of residence throughout my elementary school years.

There’s probably so many more of those “series” that I followed when I was little. I think when I started to play video games like… Warcraft and StarCraft… I started to lose interest in such simple things.

Nowadays, my desire for gaming has come to a grinding halt. I really do want a wii, but that desire gets replaced with knowing how much more time would be better spend reading and thinking.

Hmm… now if I could only get back into fiction…

Morning Prayer?

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I’m really not sure about actually going IN to morning prayer. If I had people to pray with, I’d definitely go in… but going alone… doesn’t really seem like there’s anything else to it.

But truly, getting up early in the morning to pray and to read the Bible… definitely one of the most incredible feelings afterwards.

Wednesdays, I’ll go in, since it’s small group day… but other than that, I guess I’ll continue my routine. And yesterday, I found out I just couldn’t find parking… so there goes that early WIMPE idea.

Meh.

Rethinking

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Still in Cincinnati. I definitely cleared up a lot of things on the to do list, from canceling cable internet to driving the family SUV to get it fixed to dealing with the college loan people to tracking down all the tax-related paperwork my parents and I need. I really wanted to see if I could get this retainer check done and over with so I can drive back to Illinois. It might be I really am going to be here until Wednesday.

I wasn’t able to get a whole lot of work done: Still feels like I’m on a vacation. Rather than working, I’ve been catching up on a few TV shows here and there (Battlestar Galactica, I’m so behind) and reading quite a bit of the Bible. Right, that and continuing to think where my life will take me.

To tell you the truth, I’m excited. I don’t know what I’ll be doing after 5 months. I don’t think I can stress this enough: I’ve never had a time in my life that I wasn’t 110% sure what the next step was to be. I guess it comes with the territory of actually being able to support oneself, but it also comes with being kinda self-employed.

I will be having an interview with the good MBA people at UIUC on the 19th of February. More or less a information session… and that’s what I’m looking for, more information. As soon as I get back on campus, I’ll be yoinking some GMAT books from the great Library we have. Looks like I have to write four essays, two pages max per question, for the application. Yikes. Too bad I like to write.

Personal Finance is too fun. Learning more about retirement planning… so much fun. I know for a fact I’ll be maxing out my Roth IRA very soon. Huzzah for that. If only I had some kind of system that could help me transfer some of what I’ve learned to the world…

Right. Blogs.

Still thinking over what I want to do with this blog.

“Christian Coding Korean” was what I wanted to go with. But I want to add even more to it… I’m stretching my subject areas too far as it is. Not only am I going to be writing for people, but I’m actually going to be using the blog to retain information; to help me remember what I’ve researched and learned through my browsing the Interweb.

But I’m interested in so much… Does Josh Kim dot Org just stay that way? A site just devoted to whatever the heck I’m interested in at that moment in time? But that means… I’m going to be writing endlessly…

I mean, I can sit here and write “personal” posts continuously, with a Bible open before me, going through verse by verse, just being convicted through every verse. But that’s not very productive, in the sense that I’m not meant to be doing that: It’s not like I’ve been called to some sort of a blog ministry.

I guess the problem is I’m not the best at anything. I’m just okay with a lot of things. But I like being okay at a lot of things… If there was something I learned in college (other than the subject matter), it was that one of the most important things in life is not being the best at something, but to create something to be best at. For some reason, that entrepreneurial spirit was sown.

But what to reap? What am I using as nutrients. Hopefully, massive amounts of learning and research on my own. But it can’t be my own. I must ask for help… from others and from God. Asking help from God is easy (okay, sometimes… after humility takes place). Dealing with people, though… that’s another story.

Where the heck am I? I feel like I just wrote like 2 pages and got nowhere.

Right, back to the point. Rethinking.

If I want to use the blog as a passive income generator, I need to make sure that it can be used that way. I guess I need to crank out more worthwhile posts in terms of the subject area I choose, whatever they may be.

Oh man, that’s going to require some category reorganization. Retagging, also. And I’m still thinking about ripping the RSS feeds into categories that make more sense.

Things could be easier if I just started to create more domain names, and just created content based on each… hmm…

Lack of Understanding?

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I was waiting for the day when I could say this:

I think I’m reading the Bible too much.

I feel like I can’t stop it.

But still… I can’t stop sinning.

I accidentally thought that I would become a better Christian just by reading and reading.

Maybe the words aren’t staying in my heart… or I’m just reading the words like nothing.

Should I start memorizing again? Yet ANOTHER thing to add on the list of things to do? Oyez… another text file containing lots of little verses? I guess I could put it into a TextMate project…

Well… I should be typing out my quiet times anyway.

But seriously, am I using the Bible as a means to escape actually solving anything? Is that possible?

I guess it’s better than not reading… but man, I hate being inefficient.

Must not give way to complacency… always fighting? I’m tired as it is… but strength comes from somewhere not within.

Must not give way to normalcy… making lists, and crossing things off…

Why is this so hard? Someone come knock some sense into me. Anyone?

Pray and pray and pray… and yet, things of this world continue to harass and confuse me.

Ugh. Holy frustration is still… frustration. It’s not fun at all.

But to depend… but to keep up my faith…

God, help me to focus. Give me focus and more focus. Focus in work, people, life.

Proverbs 2:5-6

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Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

Going through proverbs has been amazing. More about wisdom… and how much I need to respect and fear God which comes naturally with humility.

I get quite frustrated at my faults. I don’t like how “sin” can be something I can cross off my list of things. No matter how many times I cross it off, it seems like the line either disappears or I wasn’t using a thick enough pen. It discourages me… it makes me want to get a thicker pen.

But you see, as long as we fight… but I feel like I’m not fighting enough… my hearts in it, but I’m just not going the extra mile.

It seems like when the storm hits, I feel happy. For some reason, I’m hanging onto the Word a lot stronger than before… and I don’t run away from the problems as much. Rather than thinking back to only those sermons and small group Bible studies and random talks with people and my own understanding, I’m going to the Source of it all.

Need to keep fighting. Need to keep searching. Need to keep growing.

Even though it seems like the journey is like a bazillion miles long. The wait, the goal, even the journey, is well worth it.

Continuing the Fight

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Realizing more and more how much I lack… but realizing how much more there is to gain.

Started the work week definitely strong. I don’t know how, but I got up 20 minutes before my alarm hit. It was an angry 20 minutes of sleep, but I guess it helped a bit.

From 7:30 to 3, I worked straight through, without a lunch break. Afterwards… wow… I definitely was tired. I caught up on some XMan (Korean Variety Show), and headed for WIMPE. All this week, Dan Sun and I will be doing some much needed cardio. I definitely missed out on that while Dean was here…

Derek, why don’t you return my facebook posts? Boo! I’m going to call this one after work tomorrow to see if he wants to hang out… oh wait, after WIMPE.

I wonder if I should go into work tomorrow or Wednesday. I feel very tired… I didn’t get my 20 minutes of happiness.

Ah, and so now we’re into the meat of the post.

As I dropped off Dan with his groceries, I stopped by Gil’s apartment. Gil was a roommate I had my senior year… it was a pleasure of having this older brother still on campus… And this is when I realized my lesson of the day: It’s not about crying about what you don’t have, or just making do with what you do have. It’s about being so utterly thankful for EVERYTHING, in lack of or in abundance of ANYTHING… It can’t be one extreme or another. You can’t just be down on yourself for what you don’t have… but also you can’t be satisfied with just what you do have, and never reach out farther than you’re used to. Okay, in that last sentence, I mistyped “your”. Oh holy crap I’m getting tired.

Right, so let’s keep going with the brain on autopilot and run through a couple of things.

Backs and shoulders day cannot go after biceps and forearms. There must be something in between. Legs should be the fourth day in the regimen, and could be used as a break in between these two. Tomorrow starts up triceps and chest… Maybe the new schedule should be…

Chest/Triceps, Biceps/Forearms, Legs/More Abs Than Normal/Rest, Backs/Shoulders. For each day, have abs and cardio. Alternate between distance running (either on elliptical or track) and short distance (1 mile) per day.

Hooray for lifting gloves. Not only was WIMPE $130, but the gloves $10. More reason to go lifting… use that inner stingy Asian man!

And… I have nothing to report for today. Man… I need to get some time to myself and start writing some technical stuff.

Oh, and, MacWorld is tomorrow. It’s gotta be iPhone and iTV, but less so the iTV. Meh.

Might as well continue with the list.

I’m falling behind on the Bible reading. Gotta catch up slowly but surely.

Starting up back again for foreign languages. Daily… just like the Word.

Oh freaking rails… how much more I want to learn you.

If you’ve read this until now… wow, I feel loved. But really, you didn’t have to do that…