Maybe it is because I’m aging and becoming an old grandpa, as some people so gently put it.

Today is indeed Sunday. I will be attending CFC service, and I’m going to catch more than half the congregation still glowing from OIL. I feel like I definitely missed out… from catching the flu and from getting blessed out the wazoo (yes, I’m still working on becoming my rap/hip-hop alter-ego)… but regardless of what happened, I had a retreat here in my apartment, as well. Definitely spent a lot of time discussing and diving into the Word with Dean, as he stayed over for a couple of days. It’s the SEVENTH. Oh my goodness. 7 days has passed since the New Year, and I haven’t really sat down and wrote down a list of things to do… I used to do this daily… where did that Josh Kim go? Meh. Regardless of what the actual goals are, I’ll always set them too high to be reached… and so, the constant everyday resolution is to grow.

Wow, I’ve grown. There was a time in my life when I shunned change… hating moving so much, especially the last move from LA to Cincinnati. Had I not… I wouldn’t have ran into the white suburban Midwest life I’ve had the pleasure of experiencing. Then moving again, away from family and friends, into this state known as Illinois… My my, how far I’ve come.

And how far I have left to run. Resolution was to grow… but to grow, there must be change. Change in the way I act, I talk, I think…

Ooh, I remember a verse… Something about not having people look down on you because of your age, but set an example in such areas as… Let’s see if I can find it…

1 Timothy 4:12 – Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.

I’m still much to immature in too many ways. But alas… so far from who I’ve been… so far from what I need to be.

Gotta keep fighting.