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Someone or Something Lit Something…

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Josh Kim
on March 10, 2007
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… under my butt.

It’s been a while, no? Lots of things little and big things have been keeping me busy.

I have no idea where this energy came from. And no, it’s not the Dew. I haven’t touched that stuff since the all-nighter I pulled on Thursday/Friday. (oh man, let me tell you, that was one awesome 3 hour nap in between…)

I think I might have to attribute it to the change in weather. It’s finally getting warm, and I finally don’t have to worry if I won’t be able get my car out of the heaping mountains of snow. I can finally step outside without feeling like I need to figure out the optimal path through warm heated buildings.

It might also have to do with the Issue(s) that have been plaguing my mind. Lots of relational issues have been resolved (at least, on my side). I’m not sure if I’m going to touch on this more publicly, but just know that a certain peace have entered into my heart, enabling me to let go of things that should have been let go and to learn things that should have been learned. Thank you, to those that have helped and listened and prayed. To sum up, just know that I’m continuing to fight the good fight, and striving to grow through it all.

It also might have to do with how my sister is now going to be coming to UIUC for her pre-law/philosophy major. I actually have to start looking for a small house/condo for us to live in… (*ahem*whichmeansImightbeherenextyear*ahem*) and I also have a feeling that our family might be looking to move towards Illinois, whether it be here or up in Chicago. Long story short, things have been set into motion.

Thank goodness for the realization that it’s time to keep moving, to keep forward.

Lots to plan tonight… if I don’t watch 300. Yikes.

Are You Serious? Is This A Part of Life?

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Josh Kim
on January 10, 2007
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Lesson on relationships are being learned at quite a frightful pace. I almost sit here and wonder if this is all a dream.

Never in my life have I been hit with so many diverse relational issues as I have had to pray and talk through in the past couple of months… no… in the past year and a half, now that I think about it. Initially, these issues were not my own, but of friends. What I realized that there were so many HUGE heart problem of my own as I discovered… how much I’m screwed up.

I have to agree that I’m not the most socially outgoing or even… friendly person in the world. I suck with people. I’m working on this… but man, it’s so hard…

I’m only starting to realize that people are the most important things in the world. Maybe it’s the wrong mindset, but it looks like that’s the way it is, looking back on my life. It’s just putting this thought to action that is the hard part. I know in the core… it’s all about the people.

And to know that my weakness lies in people… and to know that people are so very important… I’m just thankful I haven’t given up.

Okay, I did. I lied.

Yeah, I gave up on people. I still do… I have irrecoverably screwed up friendships for the first time in my life (… to my knowledge… I hope this statement isn’t wrong… I’m pretty sure my past is pretty clear on this…).

So where’s the “So What?” I’m still not sure. I’m trying to figure things out.

Praying. Currently.