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It Has Come To My Attention…

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…That a certain someone thinks I don’t update as much as I should. It’s quite the truth: I desire the posting insanity. But these days, time is being spent on a lot of less meta-y things, to the point where recalling past events is becoming a chore.

And in some cases, this is good. It’s so good that past issues that don’t matter as much are being forgotten. I finally feel human.

But going back to the reasons for the delay…

Dean, a “young” “old” friend (@Dean: Pwned.) from college is back on campus and is living with me for the rest of the semester as he prepares for life anew in a far away, magical land. Okay, he’s applying for grad school elsewhere. I’m having a great time catching up, as well as making some new amazing memories. I just need to get a camcorder to record the memories that are being made currently… I definitely feel my directorial debut coming up soon… as soon as everything else I want to get done gets accomplished.

Oh, and that same kid is learnin’ me some Mandarin, while in return, I try to teach him some of my broke Korean. I had given up on even trying to learn Mandarin, this amazingly rich but difficult language, but I hope to try and learn a few bits here and there. I hope that one day I’ll be able to just understand the language: I don’t think I’ll be able to speak it. Ever. Intonations scare the crap out of me.

My passion for music has flared up again. Rock Band definitely lit a fire underneath my desire to “grow” as a “drummer”, and so in about a week and a half, I should be well on my way to diving further into that world with Rock Band 2 and the Ion Drum Rocker. The love of guitar has also increased this past week, and I hope to continue to ride this wave until it settles again, just like last time. And I’ve got Matt to thank for this one. So much to learn, it’s crazy.

Dean & Matt - The Two Catalysts

Dean & Matt – The Two Catalysts

And finally, the web development projects. It’s going slow. I pick it up from now and then, but I still don’t even have the wireframe diagrams down. This sucker is getting harder and harder by the second, and I’m not even adding any features. I feel like I have a general concept of the Models, but it’s getting crazy when I add the “Spec” Model. More on this, hopefully later.

And the catalyst in this arena, is the same kid that’s prodding me to write this freaking post in the first place, Jong-Sun.

Wait, hold up. Is this a modified list? These posts are getting kinda boring.

I know. If you don’t know me in real life, this is completely irrelevant. I guess if you really wanted to learn more about this random kid you found through a Google search, you could.

And even if you do, it’s really not that exciting. I just sit in front of screens all day long, with a short break at the gym, followed by more sitting in front of screens.

Moar Content Plz

But these posts are so easy to write… I got like 4 hours of sleep yesterday, and I’m not really feeling the argumentative Josh Kim coming out to pontificate. And that tends to be the case.

Hmm… some delicious content… where are you? I get angry at enough things, but it seems like whenever I go back to the keyboard, I forget… or my wrists/forearms hurt so much that I don’t really feel like putting to words.

Podcast? Videoblogging? I don’t know. That may be overkill.

I hope that one day the content will just seep out of me and be caught by this blog. When that day comes again, I hope you’ll be back.

Now I’m going to bed. So frickin’ tired.

The Problem With These Posts

These posts start with a point. Then it goes somewhere else. If I’m really tired, I won’t edit this and just shoot this out into the World Wide Web.

Now I’m getting caught with singing along Tenacious D’s “Wonderboy”. Figures.

And so ends yet another haphazardly put together post.

Or was it?

Dang it, I’m tired. I’m not looking over the last 2nd half of this post.

The More I Look Into the Past…

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… the more I see the importance of what’s to come. And yet, it’s funny… I keep just staring into the past for more clues about the future.

I definitely had the case of the Tuesdays, if you get my drift. Things picked up at the end, but man, it just wasn’t a good day. Legacy code kills.

Just recently, I’ve been talking to a lot of people I’ve lost in contact with. I had mixed feelings whilst talking to them… a concoction of happiness and anger, intermixed with a twinge of bittersweetness.

My left wrist is definitely acting up. I feel like I should see a doctor lest I be crippled for life with carpel tunnel. And that wouldn’t bode too well with the career I have in everything Internet ever.

I’ve been voraciously reading up on the feeds. There are a few technical stories you should be on top of. Hopefully, my Google Reader feed is doing you guys a favor.

As with everything else that isn’t PHP or Symfony, I’ve not really had time to dive too deep into it. It might be because Rails was my first MVC framework or that Symfony is basically a not-so-perfect copy of Rails, but I feel pain every time I encounter a roadblock in programming in Symfony. Routing really annoying in Symfony, and the folders… they still annoy me. Maybe I’ll get used to it still.

I guess I should put something of interest with this post. I guess I’ll leave you with this picture from the Minnesota State Fair.

Deep Fried... Snickers Bar... on a STICK

Suffice to say, it was one of the most ridiculous things I’ve ever digested. I’m glad I just got to nibble on it, at least… so I could still be alive to tell the tale.

Yeap. It’s another random post.

After the All-Nighter

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Okay, so I guess I wasn’t very clear yesterday. Nor could I have been, since I don’t remember writing that entry.

I did go up to Chicago. But for like… let’s see… I got there at 9 or so, and left at like 2… I was there for 5 hours.

Why, you ask? My Dad wanted to see Grandma since it’s been a while (just shy of a year, I think)… and so did I. I had an off day of work, so Dad and I decided to drive up. Plan was that Dad would come from Cincinnati, then I would finish the trip up to Chicago.

It was fun driving around Schaumburg. I recognized all the roads from my last trip, and it only made my driving experience more fun. Lunch was at Todai at Woodfield. I felt so happy to see my grandma so healthy and see my dad happy that grandma was so healthy. Just recently, she visited the hospital for something serious, but it looks like she’s gotten better. I think this was the first time in my life I ate more than my Dad did (and this was a buffet!). I’m not sure what lead to that, but I have a feeling it has something to with the company.

But alas, I wouldn’t be Josh Kim unless I learned something from the trip.

I learned the important role that food plays in relationships, and vice versa. I bet, if my grandmother wasn’t present, I wouldn’t have eaten so much. Maybe it’s something about listening and talking and laughing and… I don’t know, maybe it was just abnormal calorie burning throughout the meal. I have feeling, there’s something more to it than that…

I learned more about family. I shared earlier how I’m only beginning to realize how important people are in the world… a subset of those people who we call “family” seem even more important.

I would go into town with these, but I’d much rather just pray through them.

What followed after my Chicago trip warrants yet another entry. I hung out again with Derek, my freshman-year-roommate-who-served-in-iraq-and-got-married friend. A 32 oz cup of Mountain Dew and a bag of Sun Chips and like… 8 hours of Splinter Cell on PS2 later… wow. Let me tell you, that game is fun with a friend in co-op mode.

Yes, it wasn’t a very useful all nighter, but was it fun.

I need to unwind like this a lot more.

Oh and tomorrow and Monday… the kids are coming back to town. I have no idea how I’m going to get ready for that. Freaking students and their new year resolutions, crowing up the gym… Do I have to change my routine to mornings?

Well, not just students in general… but a lot of my friends on campus are coming back. Can I resolute to at least meet all of my old friends that are on campus before the end of this academic year?

Dudes, half the month went by. Are you guys keeping up with your resolutions? 23/24th of a year is left…

Realizing How Far I've Come and How Far I Have To Go

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Instead of meeting with four out of the five roommates from last year, I had dinner with just one: Gil. It’s been a while since I ate out… and that’s only a very good sign. Definitely got to catch up on a lot of things… I guess he’ll be trying to take a couple courses leading into a Master’s in Education. That’s awesome good news… he seems like he’s so good with the little people.

I definitely felt like God was speaking through Gil, though. I had to tell him the things that were going on… relational issues was the number one talked thing. I got a clearer understanding of how I should continue to fight myself and my desires.

And from this I realized yet something else… I’m just so thankful that there are people out there wiser than I am. [Points to the sky] Regardless of age, EVERYONE is able to see things differently… and through those different points of view I learn so much about me and about them. While I’m here on campus with the students of UIUC and with the church members of CFC, I need to keep being thankful for all things.

I finally called up Grace Sue, after which I found out that she indeed didn’t get my phone number from the last time I called her… no biggie. I went over to her and Ester’s place after my Dinner with Gil, where I found Dan chilling as well.

This is where it gets interesting. I guess I’m going to be joining a small group. I’m not sure, but it looks like my good ol’ Wednesday might be the day. Inadvertently, I found out basically who all the leaders were for the small groups. I decided this shouldn’t play a role in selecting my small group, and should be giving Mr. Chris Sotelo and email.

I need to stop writing these senseless sentimental posts. I need to start putting up some good content in the area of my expertise.

No, not John Hodgman’s “Areas of Expertise”. That was silly.

So I guess my goal of meeting these people… Derek, Dan, Gil, Grace… have all been met. Everyone else I met today was just bonus. Sweet sweet bonus.

Are You Serious? Is This A Part of Life?

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Lesson on relationships are being learned at quite a frightful pace. I almost sit here and wonder if this is all a dream.

Never in my life have I been hit with so many diverse relational issues as I have had to pray and talk through in the past couple of months… no… in the past year and a half, now that I think about it. Initially, these issues were not my own, but of friends. What I realized that there were so many HUGE heart problem of my own as I discovered… how much I’m screwed up.

I have to agree that I’m not the most socially outgoing or even… friendly person in the world. I suck with people. I’m working on this… but man, it’s so hard…

I’m only starting to realize that people are the most important things in the world. Maybe it’s the wrong mindset, but it looks like that’s the way it is, looking back on my life. It’s just putting this thought to action that is the hard part. I know in the core… it’s all about the people.

And to know that my weakness lies in people… and to know that people are so very important… I’m just thankful I haven’t given up.

Okay, I did. I lied.

Yeah, I gave up on people. I still do… I have irrecoverably screwed up friendships for the first time in my life (… to my knowledge… I hope this statement isn’t wrong… I’m pretty sure my past is pretty clear on this…).

So where’s the “So What?” I’m still not sure. I’m trying to figure things out.

Praying. Currently.

Start of A New Week

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Now that I’ve caught up with my daily postings… here comes the list of things to come.

Dean Knox: He will be leaving for Chicago tomorrow. I’m going to miss him… for about a week. I’m sure we’ll see each other more often… actually, I lied. He’s most likely go into a hole larger than last year, with his 18 hour course-load, as well as his job. Need to make sure to pray for him while he’s away in Boston, talking to all those Harvard peoples.

Dan Sun: Got back tonight to Champaign. He’ll be working at Moto like he did last semester for this week and for the semester to come. He’ll become my new WIMPE partner. I finally get to do some cardio… whew… And I Dan’s going to be a replacement chef for Dean, also. I’m sure Dan’s got lots of things to teach me in the art of cooking.

Grace Sue: Randomly running into her today definitely made me smile. We haven’t kept in touch for… like… two years. The one time I remember seeing her was running into her at 12:30 service 2nd semester, senior year. Hopefully, I’ll be meeting up with her before the small group schedules start up again.

Derek Remund: I will hang out with him, either on Monday or Tuesday, depending on what’s better for him. Dean occupied the last few days, but I need to have some nice times with my good ol’ freshman year roommate. I’m sure there will be much Guitar Hero-ing, as well as some “The Office” episodes… Yum.

John Kim: If this kid ever comes to town… then we’ll hang out. But other than that, I can’t promise anything.

ex-Atrium 103: My last year roommates. We’ll have dinner maybe on Thursday.

Basically, the rest of the week is the same old. I’ll work in the mornings… hopefully I’ll be able to procure a parking spot before the semester starts… The three jobs I have, plus the blog… as well as reading the Bible and other random things, as well as restarting with Japanese and Hanja. Freaking Ruby… is still on the list…

Absolutely nothing has changed… I don’t like how I can’t cross things off the list so fast anymore. It seems like most of my things to do are… going to take some time. I guess I’m realizing more and more how impatient I am in a lot of ways.

So, alas, here’s to another week. Waking up at 7 AM. I love routines… when then work out…

Maybe I should start aiming for 6, to get myself to MP… I’m going to give this a more serious thought if I do get a parking pass on campus.